30 January 2014

Rainbow Room.



Coat Next
Trousers Primark
 Scarf Vintage
Belt Primark
Necklace Primark
Shoes New Look 

Last night the Scottish Bloggers headed over to The Rainbow Room International in Glasgow for a night of pampering ... well for everyone else! Stupid wig :(

As you can see from the photos a few of the girls got some wee treatments so make sure to head over to their blogs to find out what they thought.

Roisin and Gill got some facials and their skin was looking amazing afterwards!

Laura and Ayden got their nails did!

and Gillian, Kirsty, Lynsey and Laura got some gorgeous new doos courtesy of the RRI Stylists! They look amazing don't they!

I was soooooo jealous watching everyone getting their hair done! My wig can be styled but I'm just trying not to to keep it nice for as long as I can so I couldn't take advantage, but everyone who got something new done looked amazing! 

It was great to have a wee blog night I've not been to anything in a while and it was great to catch up with the girls and see some of the newer bloggers to get to know them better!

The stylists and staff were fantastic and so friendly! 
So Thank you to The Rainbow Room for having us and putting on a lovely night!

Sweet Dreams

Paula .. x


28 January 2014

Love My Boyfriend Jeans.




Top Primark
Blazer H&M
Jeans Primark
Hat Primark
Necklace Primark
*Bracelet Paul Mitchell*
Belt River Island
Boots Barratts

The aim for this week is to get my lips under control. I haven't bitten my nails for months and since I've been a taaaaaad stressed recently I have been ripping the skin off my lips. As I sit here right now I have layered them in bonjella to heal them ... 

I love todays outfit, completely unplanned, love when that happens. I have struggled to find things to wear with these boyfriend jeans even though I really like them. So I'm making them a project and I will try and experiment with them. 

I need to get one of these wee faux collar tops in white for summer. They were down to like 50p in Primark the other day so I bought all the ones in my size!

The lighting in my house is driving me insane! 
Going to try and get a bigger light, any suggestions guys?

Sweet Dreams

Paula .. x

24 January 2014

Little Bright Bran.




Shirt New Look
Dress Topshop
Skirt Vintage
*"Paula" Necklace Punky Pins*
Chain Primark
Rings Dads (My Good Luck Ring) & Primark
Belt River Island
Shoes New Look

#BLOGGERPROBLEMS when you accidentally delete your blog photos ... google is a wonderful thing. These were the only photos I was able to save - which sucks - but thankfully I got one outfit shot which is what I wanted to show. Phew.

I wanted something that showed off my style and was memorable. I think I achieved that ... theres no ignoring this colour scheme. I got this amazing full skirt at the Judy's Vintage Fair last Saturday. I couldn't believe the colour and I am all about these full skirts for spring. I kept the colours bright to stand out and added the shirt to make it look a little more formal. 

My Instagram followers will have seen that a few weeks ago I broke my "Paula" necklace and I was heartbroken. Don't get me wrong its replaceable but I broke down when it snapped. I've obviously been falling apart for weeks and when it broke I just got emotional and thought it snapping was symbolic of what I was going through ... haha, drama. Anyways the wonderful guys over at Punky Pins sent me over a replacement, which was so so nice, I was so happy when it came, you have no idea how much it meant to me and when I put it on today it made me feel great, you can't buy a feeling like that.

I wore this today to a job interview! If you follow my Twitter you will know one of the reasons why I left my current job, and believe me it was such a shock to leave my job without another ready. I never thought I'd do that in a million years, but I was making myself so ill I really couldn't take it anymore and everyday it was getting worse and worse and there comes a point were I had to put my health and well being first. I'm really lucky that I have 2 wages coming in and a lot of savings and since the only bills I have is dig money, cat food and a phone bill I'm not putting myself at risk of being homeless/in debt. I have no intentions of being unemployed for long, I will keep looking for jobs and I'm really excited about doing some volunteering and freelance work. I'm not the kind of person who sits still, I need to be going 24/7. Todays job is one I really really want and if I get it I will be so so so happy and grateful that my risk was worth it. Well its already worth it, I'm already feeling much better and although I will miss my old job so much and the real friends I made, I know I made the right choice, as much as the situation sucks.

 Never shit were you eat, and never fall for boys who lie about how they feel :/

Sweet Dreams

Paula .. x

20 January 2014

Satanic Kitties.




Body Abandon Ship Apparel
Shorts Primark
Hat H&M
Necklace EBay
Rings Primark
Shoes Converse

I had been um-ing and ahh-ing over this body for a few weeks now, I wasn't sure what I could wear it with, but then I just thought bugger it. Since then I have worn it a good  few times already so I'm very happy. I love the wee satanic cats, every time I look at them I giggle. I ended up buying a load of things from Abandon Ship, the sale is amazing! So head down to Princes Square if you haven't already checked it out, before its all gone.

 Sweet Dreams

Paula .. x

19 January 2014

King Tutus.

Dress Primark
Shoes Next (Clearance Store)
Necklace New Look
Hat Primark

Last week, I was sitting on eBay ... enjoying a beer, next thing I know ... I own a pink wig. Do not drink and shop, ever. However I got lucky and I love this wig! I've worn it a few times now and everyone loves it and its been a nice change since I can't do anything with my blonde one and since we all know I can't not mess with my hair. Wigs are a great way to make changes without the damage. Its just a cheap one from China but I can straighten it and curl it on low heat so thats good, but I do have to wear a hat because you can see the lining on the scalp, so its a good thing I'm a hat lover. I've been looking at loads since, and I think I'm going to end up buying a few colours! 

Next can we take a moment to look at my ADORABLE wee boots. How awesome are they? They are horrendously ugly, but I bloody love them. I love them even more because they cost me £2 ... yes ... £2! If you have a Next clearance near you and you haven't visited it, GO NOW.

Sweet Dreams

Paula .. x

8 January 2014

Hair Update 7.


We are now on Month 7!

There was a point when I actually paid to have my hair this short ...

Back when I was 18 and wanted a change after some idiot hairdresser whacked my beautiful blonde Rapunzel hair off ... still brings me to tears ...

I'm just getting more and more excited as I can really see how much its growing by, so I can see it actually happening!

Sweet Dreams

Paula .. x

7 January 2014

South Pacific.





Shirt H&M (Charity Shop Find)
Shorts Primark
Necklace Primark
Flower Primark
Shoes New Look
First OOTD of 2014 :) 

I'm hoping to keep mixing the blog up with OOTD posts and lifestyle posts too. I've had a great response from my posts depicting my descent into sanity ... ha. So I want to keep that up and talk more about depression (in a positive way), the continuously stressful career hunt, the single life (I'm considering dating? What? Its all research I swear ... no boyfriends aloud) my fitness progress (if any, I'm really hard trying to stick it out) and anything else that might cross my path this year.

The main reason I started this blog was for Fashion, so I will never let that slide, but I'm really thinking that incorporating more lifestyle posts are the way forward.

It feels good to be back.

Sweet Dreams

Paula .. x

3 January 2014

Hello 2014.

My last post of 2013 was a pretty negative one, definitely reflective of how my 2013 ended.


I am starting 2014 as I mean to go on, on a positive and hopeful note.

I quite hate the whole "New Years" thing, but thats more to do with the whole act of everyone getting smashed and using as it as an excuse for doing stupid shit rather than celebrating it. 

I'm also quite OCD in the sense that I like that it changes into a whole new number. I very much use that as a fresh start. I know that the problems and issues are still the same, but I'm much more inclined to make a big change or effort since its a new year, like I say, its very OCD of me.

2014 is a year I am dedicating to myself, and doing things for me.

First on the hit list is beating this Depression and getting rid of this negative Bran who has replaced me. I have loads of things in mind to help me do this, and perhaps if there is anyone who needs a hand beating the "D" they can do it too. I have no idea if any of it is going to work. All I can do is try.

I have came up with these ideas simply based of loads of advice I've been given from all the people I have spoken too about it.

Step 1: Talk
I know its terrifying beyond belief, but its like anything you fear, once you face it, the problem halves. Talk to someone, don't hide it. Stop pretending everything is ok. EVERYTHING IS NOT OK ... but it will be. You just have to take that first step.

Step 2: Make Goals
Start small, make little day to day goals to help you build your confidence and take it bit by bit so it doesn't seem as scary. 

My first week after I was diagnosed went like this:

1: Brush teeth today (Such a babe ...)
2: Put clothes on today
3: Take a walk into town today
4: Change out of the jeans you've been wearing all week ...
5: Put on make up today
6: Go out with friends today
7: Go back to work today

Since that first week its been more week to week goals, like, do something different this week, go to a different place for lunch etc etc ... whatever you want to achieve, set your goal and go for it. Just take it slow and don't over push yourself. You set your goals, no pressure.

Step 5:  Surround Yourself with People
For me, distraction is my greatest weapon against depression, being distracted from my own mind helps me feel better and helps me be more appreciative. Spend time with people and you won't feel alone. Spend time with friends, family, or use it as an opportunity to make new friends, you can never have too many friends.

Step 6: Keep Busy 
When you can't be around people, make the most of your "Me" time, do things you enjoy. Get some new hobbies. For me this means exercise, I've recently started running and it has been amazing so far! Exercise helps release happy endorphins which obviously makes you feel happier, plus my body is getting more toned which is making me feel more confident. Running really clears my head too, theres nothing better than plugging in your Ipod, and running away for a wee while. I'm also going to pump more time into the blog and get practising my photography skills! So on days when I'm friendless thats things I can do for me.

Step 7: Make Plans
Once your feeling more confident you can start to look to the future, and make plans for things to do once you are feeling back to your old self again, which you will I promise. I have made a list of things I want to do this year, I have 12 so far, I figured if I had 12 it would mean I could do 1 a month so that I would have something to look forward to each month. So Far I have:

1. Paint Bike
2. Photography Course
3.Travel (Prague, Berlin, Italy, Amsterdam)
4. Fashion Week
5. Swim with the sharks
6. Edinburgh Marathon
7. Skiing
8. Sewing Course
9. Bungee Jump
10. Tattoos
11. T in the Park
12. Go Ape
13. Blackpool

the list will continue!

Step 8: Remember the Little Things
When times are dark it can be really hard to see the light and see the good in your life. You know that there is good in your life, but feeling it is a different story. So my way of remembering the good, involves Instagram. Everyday I want to take a photo of something small that makes me happy. So that whenever I'm feeling especially dark I can see the little things in life that make it good.

I'm hoping that over this year all these little steps will help me to recover from this depression. I already know that I have made progress, a month ago I couldn't see me ever getting better and all I wanted to do was sleep forever ... but now I want my life back, I want to be happy and positive and free from this.

Thats the first step.

Sweet Dreams

Paula .. x